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Name: Kristen
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: Brooklyn
Gender: Female
Interests: Dancing, choreographing, singing, acting, listening to music, drawing, writing poetry, hanging out with friends, coffee
Expertise: dancing and singing, choreographing, acting, musical theater, random science and nature info, working with kids
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
6/28/2003
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| I'm on one of the school's laptops and after taking all my time to import a cd into it, it wont let me burn it!! fucker lol. there goes part of my gift to my dancers, still have to go out and get flowers for them.
Performances have gone really well so far. There has been some craziness, screaming and all, but when does that ever not happen? Pippin rehearsals are going pretty well too, atleast for now, I never know when my director is going to become a complete bitch again. I just need to always stay calm and never get on his bad side. Problem is, his good side one day may be his bad the next if that makes any sense. lol
I forgot how good it feels to get all these thoughts and feelings off your chest. Writing on here is the release that I've been looking for. Hopefully it will keep me calm enought to get through these next few weeks.
My god, the library is FREEZING!!!! lol my hands are like ice and I'm still sitting in my coat. not cool or not warm lol.
Bobby got a job working on "30 Rock" today. I'm so happy for him. Trust me, pippin rehearsals were making him just as crazy as they were making me, and now he can work on something that he loves. yay! So hopefully he has fun tonight.
I fee like I have more to write but I don't know what to type. lol I guess just rambling on and on to anyone who will read this is a good enough stress release for anyone.
k off to buy some flowers! | | |
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By The Beatles
Here Comes The Sun/The Inner Light (Transition)
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Wow it has been about a year and a half since I've written on here and seeing Nicole's entry the other day has inspired me to start writing on here again.
So its now Junior year of college. Ahhh! lol time has gone by so fast. I've choreographed more at HSES, and now I'm choreographing at the Heights Players. I did "Carousel" last may and now I'm towards the end of the rehearsal process on "Pippin". I'm also choreographing at Hunter College and my piece goes up tomorrow! Trust me when I say that me freaking out right now is an understatement.
Relationships have come and gone, and I now have a wonderful guy in my life, Bobby. We've been together a little over 2 months now and its going really well.
I agree with nicole that college can really mature a person. I look back at all my old entries and I'm amazed at how i sounded in them. I really have grown up, i cant be peter pan and stay a kid forever, and while being a kid and carefree is fun, its not who i am anymore. Well, once in awhile i do revert back, which is a welcome relief but you can't dwell on it to much.
A couple years ago, my relationship paragraph would take up this entire page, relationships where what i thought ran my life. But now i know there is so much more than that. There is so much more to life than the physical. I'm finally starting to realize my goals, develop my career, and become an adult. And you know what?, it's not as bad as everyone says it is.
I've found the balance between relationships and my career. I think I'm finally starting to find myself. Life is a learning process, and one can never know everything there is to know about it. I look forward to learning and experiencing more and more now to and to my personal knowledge.
I've started believing in the mantra that "everything happens for a reason" and it hasn't failed me yet. Even when something seemingly bad has occurred in my life, a month or two later I can look back and go " thats why that happened!" I feel like the bad things help you to achieve the good things later on.
So now once again off to class and rehearsals galore, but I'm looking at it with a whole new perspective. | | |
| Happy 19th Birthday to me!!!!! hehe  Can't believe I'm finally 19.
Finally got through to Marc. Things are back to normal now so happy me!!!
Dead Man's Apartment is going so well!! the crowds we've been getting have all loved it! hehe yay! ive been getting compliments too. yay!!!! 
Can't write much right now, I have a show at 3pm and 8pm today so i gotta get going soon.
I leave for Camp Blue Bay on monday morning!!! Im working there over the summer and dont get back till the 17th of august. so if anyone wants to write me, here's the address:
Kristen Keim
Camp Blue Bay
Flaggy Hole Road
East Hampton, NY 11937
kk gota go -Kristen | | |
| wow i havent written on here since june!! jeez! lol anyway to sum everythig up that has happened.
1) rehearsed and did three weeks of shows for "State Fair"! i miss that show so much now! it really got me out of the bad rut i was in and seriously, being a dancer in that show was serious work, all my costume changes were fast changes, and i was literally in every freakin dance number! oy vey lol. But in the process of the rehearsals i met my current boyfriend, Marc. He was one of the leads in the show. I swear after our first kiss, i jumped right in and fell in love so fast, i couldnt believe it. but now i regret not holding back a little. needless to say, just as i thought it would be, after the show was over he suddenly couldnt make time for me, he hates using the phone, so we talk online but he is almost never online when i am,and now we havent even talked in a week. why do al the guys that i date that i think are perfect suddenly turn into assholes when i least expect it? hes stopped replying to my emails, o he reads them, but doesnt say anything back. wtf? my last email to him was this poem and i think it pretty well sums up my point.
Disappearance
I sit here staring at the computer screen,
wondering where you have been.
Every night contemplating in the dark,
if our relationship has lost that spark.
If it has, it's not from me,
I still long for you wholeheartedly.
But what has become of my observer friend?
Am I ever to see you again?
I strain to remember what seems a lifetime ago,
our night together and our repetitive show.
What has happened, was I just,
another girl for you to lust.
I pray that it is not true,
but every day I feel farther away from you.
Let me in! Tell me what's going on!
I wont judge you or make you feel wrong.
I am a keeper of secrets you have yet to know,
I am a confidant that continues to grow.
Or even an E-mail to tell me you're OK,
just let me know so I wont worry away.
Then I can let my fears fly,
from the back of my mind into the sky.
These fears are devilish inside,
telling me I was used and making me cry.
I wont believe them, they can't be true,
but I can't be sure until I hear from you.
But did I do something wrong?
Am I singing the wrong song?
Did I scare you away,
with my feelings on that day?
Did I cling too tight,
on that distant night?
Or did I miss the sign,
that you did not want to be mine?
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| oy! i swear, senioritis can extend into your entire freshman year of college!!! god i just want to be done with these fuckin general education requirements (GERs)!!!! they are annoying the shit out of me!!! all i want to do is act, sing and dance!! Even though i like us history, the lecture professor is really starting to annoy me. plus i left my notebook w/ the syllabus at a rehearsal on saturday so i didnt even know the exact assignment for today. since that saturday i swear ive been getting sick and my luck has been running out. i had the audition for state fari on monday and the callback on wednesday and do you know what i get? -featured dancer. yea wtf? what the hell did i do wrong, i dont even have a name!!! all i asked for was more than 3 lines. is that too much to ask? 3 fuckin lines!!!! grrrrrr...... whatever, i guess im just moving up slower than i thought. but hey at least i get to show off and be sexy this time instead of playing a 13 year old. so yea i didnt go to acting all this week. monday morning i was just not feeling that great, and the same thing happened this morning too. i swear i felt like i was going to faint! not cool, partly because of the fact that i had a 20 minute nosebleed last night to boot. grrr to that. so now im all stuffed up and i feel like shit. i seriously cant get sick now. i need to stay healthy and not miss any more classes. i need to bring my GPA up cause right now its only a 3.0 and i know most of you would be glad to have that but not me. i want to have A's across the board. i guess its the overachiever in me. i have class in 10 minutes. i dont want to go, cause no matter how hard i try to pay attention im still going to end up doodling and dozing off and we have a test next week. im gonna study like hell for that one though. well i guess the only thing i can really look forward to today is seeing Val (the guy who played lennie in Mice and Men) tonight. we're in a children's theater show together and he doesnt know im in it yet so im going to surprise him at rehearsal tonight.hehe cant wait to do that! yea the Storybook Theater show is really the only thing im looking forward to right now.  o well we shall see how everything occurs o yea! im now choreographing for the show choir and for the womens glee at HSES!!! so maybe i have one more thing to look forward to lol. | | |
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